stress for no reason

i tend to stress for no valid reason. i guess i like giving myself a hard time, after having a period of an amazingly good time. its a cycle man. i literally cried for months, only to realize that its all good. from now on, anup is gonna look at things as if he were 10 years ahead in timeline from now, and think about it this way - whatever he is stressing out on today will be nothing more than something to laugh at then.

tata bye bye

Check out the nipples in the foreground, but don't forget the city either. ktm ya'll.

dark days

i have lost optimism since the past year or 2. from what i can remember this started since the fall of 2009. at the moment, it is spring of 2011 and i am more pessimistic than i have ever been. so i guess i have been rolling down a slope from optimism to pessimism. the positive energy inside of me has just been fading away slowly. consequently all i feel inside of me is negative energy and it is sad because what i have is all i can give out. and i feel like i am giving off negative energy everywhere i go. i have been aware of this trend yet i can't seem to stop myself from rolling down. i guess the momentum is quite large and it demands a lot of effort to even stop it. i am trying but haven't been successful yet. my current situation would best be described by this Nepali saying that i ve heard my father say every once in a while: "kukur ko kaam pani chhaina, fursad pani chhaina". i have been really inefficient in school this semester. no matter how much time i allocate for studying, i can't seem to focus. so, i don't get things done in optimum time, and actually don't get most of the things done in time at all. but i guess a change takes time. so i am still trying my best. we ll see when this trend takes a positive turn and the graph starts rising up again.

i realize this is a very depressing, sad, mood-destroying blog but i promise to rejuvenate myself. my next blog will be more positive.

alvida till then.

iPhone 4G

So...today i finally got my 4G. had to wait about 12 days after ordering it to actually get it in my hands. it is definitely a cool phone. i d say the coolest i ve had so far. apple products are just amazing. the first application i downloaded was something that plays many nepali FMs live. listened to some news on kantipur fm and smiled, thinking how magical technology can be. listening to nepali fm on my phone in america - it was like a dream come true to me. i d always wanted to listen to nepali fm in the us. a few years back, just being able to listen to it on the computer would have made me happy; i can't believe i can listen to it right on my phone now.

Things Have Changed.

i am sure there are much more similarly exciting things i can discover on this phone. gud bye for now i as go on an iphone expedition. :)

hellooooo

so this is my first blog ever. i have always been a little scared of writing...but maybe it is about time to get rid of that feeling and step into this creative world. thanks to Aswin bhai for making me familiar with the blog world and asking me to make one. I have finally made one. I ll hopefully be updating it often. :)